It's making me a bit sad, wondering where all these late night dormitory talks go when people start leaving the dormitory for the summer. Thinking what would become of us when we start the next semester, being not dormitory-mates. All the sleepless nights spent studying (but most of the time laughing silently, holding every laughter just to avoid GR slips), the birthday surprises we had for each other, the early mornings spent jogging-slash-swimming together, the PIGFUL dinnertimes spent eating together.

I try to imagine next academic school year and it just scares me to the bones. Maybe it won't be that bad after all but still, I know things will never be the same again. As I would always quote Narnia's Aslan to Lucy,

"Things never happen the same way twice, dear one."

No matter how hard we try to convince ourselves that nothing should change, anything could happen along the way. So there's no need to stress how much we should stay the same. Cause just as how shrubs grow into trees, puppies into dogs, and caterpillars into butterflies, people change. So there you go, no need to stress on staying the same and treating each other exactly how we used to treat each other. But it's not gonna kill to try. Maybe we could try, we just have to not expect something greater than what we were when we were together. Togetherness does matter like, a lot.

So maybe it's not making me A BIT sad after all. Maybe it really is making me sad. So I will try. But I'm still sad.. I'll always be sad when I think of all those late night talks and silent laughing sessions. I'll be sad because soon I'll be taking myself back to these times and realize how I should've made everything worthwhile.

I wish we didn't have to grow old this quick. I feel like instead of chasing dreams, we're chasing time. And now that I'm two days away from officially ending my freshman year, How do you think I should feel?

Labels: college life, one of those what the hell moments, sad, UP

( via almonds-andraisins )
Everybody's getting old. I dun wanna be an adult yet. I hate birthdays. I wanna be young forever. I don't care about the gifts. I just wanna be young and not have birthdays. I wish April 4 won't ever come again.

I can't believe Geli  just turned eighteen. She's legal, she could be in jail if she ever does something stupid. What if I turn eighteen? And do some stupid things? I do stupid things a lot. I'd be in jail! Age would never be a reason for not being in jail. Cause I'd be legal. I don't like the idea. So not ideal. Just the thought of it makes me cringe manically. This is panic attack.

BREATHE. INHALE. EXHALE.
I still have two years. Two freakin' years. Three hundred sixty five days times two. That'd be more or less, 700 days, right? Would that be enough? Please let that be enough.

Last night was epic. We celebrated Geli's 18th Birthday. Everybody got drunk. Well not really everybody. Oh the pros of being in control. I'm glad I did not get drunk. Not even a sip.

On second and a slightly different thought, I dun think rejecting a drink is something cowardly. They say getting drunk means truths out. Fuck those who believe that crap. I can be true without getting drunk. I don't need alcohol to have fun. Alcohol is just an equipment. I can live without it. I can have fun without it.

I love you Geli. Though not in a Bromantic way, I mean it. I really love you. Happy 18th. Hope you really got surprised with our surprise. Love you bebe.


More details and pics on Geli's 18th soon.
I have two exams this week. Hist 1 and Envi Sci 10.
Better start getting into my studying kind of trance now.

Labels: college life, happy, one of those OHYES moments, one of those what the hell moment, UP

I tell you who.

*raises hand*
ME ME ME.

This whole addiction thing's gobbling my whole mood up and I'm starting to believe this is gonna be it... The time my life starts sucking like lalalala. By the time I graduate from this University, I'll be a full-pledged Fangirl, I bet.

I hate rain. I hate how it reminds me of romantic movie scenes and kissing and happy endings. You know that feeling? Yea. It sucks. And yayy to me for continuing the challendge up 'til today.

Labels: 30 day challenge, friends, random, UP

Seriously, I think I am slowly becoming USEFUL. You know that feeling when you realize you've been really busy and you feel like you always don't have enough time for this and that? Yea. I'm feeling it right now.

Not sure whether or not it's supposed to be a good thing though. I only know that I'm learning a lot from life. My feeling right this moment though, doesn't really coincide with what I've just blurted out. There are just too many stories. Too lazy to explain each of 'em. But at least I want you guys to have a gist of what's been happening to me lately (specifically the second semester). ON BULLETS. (Just like how dear UMI does it.)

• I got in SAMAKAKA, A Politiccal Org fighting against Women Oppression. Hyea. I'm making it official. I now am a part of Party Alliance.

• I'm starting a little business with some friends. It's called UNO (Unlimited Networking Opportunities), a networking company designed for ages like me and my friends. We're starting up an Organization inside the campus (SEEKERS). We call it SIDELINE but, oh well it's kinda, hard, but so much fun at the same time. Remember when I mentioned something about doing something useful? I think this is it. Yayy me. :D

• I've decided. I'm finally getting over him. Don't ask who. You know him.

• Hung out more lately. Never realized how fun it could be staying out of the dromitory late for dinner. Dun worry mum, I'm not breaking any rules.

•  November 23. A date people like me MUST NEVER EVER FORGET. Did candle-lighting with sum peeps. In commemoration of the Ampatuan Massacre last year, wherein about 30 ( YES, THIRTY ) innocent MEDIA PEOPLE were killed no mercy.

• We have one class together (Humanities 1). Not gonna elaborate on this, No-uh.

• Been preparing for DEC 10. Int'l Human Rights Day. It's world-wide, so, mark yer calendars now. Hee.

• Made another pub for our dormitory. It's for today's Olympics. wherein, by the way I'm gonna play Table tennis (wish me luck).

• NEWSFLASH. I'm giving the one who made me smile last night a chance. But I want him to observe the THREE MONTH RULE. I feel like it's a bit too early for us. I dun wanna make the same mistake.

It's pretty much SELF EXPLANATORY.  I just can't live without CHOCOLATES. YUUUUM. Must-go-get-one-now. BUHBYE :]

Labels: 30 day challenge, chocolates, college life, happy, NO TO BUDGET CUT, UP

You know, I hate JERKS. I dunno, I just really really hate them like I wanna stab them to death or hang them with a rope some place where everybody (including me) could see them bleeding to death. That'd be epic. So epic it'll teach all jerks their lessons.

Okay. Maybe I'm wrong. But I dun really care about it anymore. Just remembered one line from one of my favorite animated movies, The Monster House:

"When a guy with tattoos comes up to the drive-thru, give him his burger, not your phone number." - Zee the babysitter.

But that's not my exact story. Okay fine. Somehow, it's kind of like that. But not totally. Mine's just a little too complicated to be put up as a line in some animated movie. Mine's kinda like.

"When a cool guy who's good friends with your roommates tries to ask for help from them to get you or something, no matter how much they convince you that he's a very good guy, don't believe them. Go find out yourself. Don't be lazy ass. Like me." - Regina Philange, originally the voice in Phoebe Buffay's head, but now the voice in my head too.

So yea. My story's kinda like that. And it sucks. It just sucks like hell. On second thought, I feel relieved that I had to find that out this early. It's just sooo... EPIC FAIL.

BLAAAHHH. Talk about guys. They never learn their lessons. I dunno but I think they kinda enjoy learning it the hard way. HAHA. It's gonna be their burden, not mine. So I dun care.

SAYANG. OKAY PA NAMAN SIYA TANI.
EXCEPT THE 50% POSSIBILITY THAT HE'S TOTAL JERK. I THINK.

Labels: 30 day challenge, college life, GUYS SUCK, UP

H U L L O   D E A R S.
PLEASE VISIT MY GRAPHIC SITE AT:

http://almonds-andraisins.blogspot.com/ [VISIT]

It's a book-inspired graphic site. From the one I'm currently reading: Maisie Mosco's Almonds and Raisins. Did not have sumthing yummy in mind to name my site so I just chose the book's title. Heee. You can apply as a maker. I'm inviting sum peeps to. Cause classes are gonna be back again and I couldn't be online as often as I've been going online for the past weeks. So I kinda need some help. Just contact me if you wanna be a part of it :D



I can be a beggar for a day.
Not that I wanna BE ONE. No. I just feel like it. I wanna feel free, you know. Free-er than anyone else. Maybe it's because I love travelling a lot too. I've kinda been dreaming about living a nomadic life. Guess I just wanna feel like those beggars from Coelho's The Zahir. Esther would say that beggars were the only ones who never pretend to be happy. To this I quote a conversation between the main character, who was a best-selling writer and a bunch of beggars from the book from which I've learned a lot:

“Who are you? What kind of life is this? You’re healthy, you could work, but instead you
prefer to hang around doing nothing!”
“We choose to stay outside, outside a world that is fast collapsing, outside people who
live in constant fear of losing something, who walk along the street as if everything was
fine, when, in fact, everything is bad, very bad indeed! Don’t you beg too? Don’t you ask
for alms from your boss to pay the owner of your apartment?”
“Aren’t you ashamed to be wasting your life?” asks the woman in the purple coat.
“Who said I’m wasting my life? I do precisely what I want to do.”
The burly man interrupts, saying:
“And what is it you want? To live on top of the world? Who told you that the mountain is
necessarily better than the plain? You think we don’t know how to live, don’t you? Well,
your wife understood that we know exactly what we want from life. Do you know what
we want? Peace! Freedom! And not to be obliged to follow the latest fashions—we make
our own fashions here! We drink when we want to and sleep whenever we feel like it!
Not one person here chose slavery and we’re proud of it, even though you and people like
you may think we’re just a lot of pathetic freeloaders!”

So yea. Guess that pretty much explains everything. I'm travelling back to Miami tomorrow for the second semester. Woooo. I feel nervous and excited as well.
But I think I'm ready for another bunch of (God forbid) terror professors, dirtbag-looking bluebooks, achievements and maybe humiliations too. Bring it on.

Labels: 30 day challenge, college life, graphic site, happy, paulo coelho, random, school, UP

I dun get why people just have to give a big fuss about the littlest things in existence.

They should be gettin their freakin' attentions to more important stuff, you know. And I mean, really really important ones. People keep digging the President's relationship with his personal designer, when they have a whole lot more significant issues to think about - like the K12 education thing., which for me is a very big NO. People should know by now where this whole budget-cut thing for State Universities and our University came from. It is and will always be obvious: the government has no sufficient funds for this K12 education system; and where are they supposed to earn funds? Of course, from schools they have control over. //cough cough//. OUR SCHOOL, and all the other subsidized Universities. Very nice idea. Very very nice. How can you possibly call someone a scholar if he/she pays almost the same tuition rate as those who are in a private school? With this I have one word: TRASH. It's obvious as well that this whole K12 system is because we're the only Asian country left with the old system. Kind of like a trend that's going on. Well, I can pretty much claim that IN THIS POINT OF TIME, WE DON'T NEED FREAKIN' TRENDS. We need high quality education at the lowest cost.

Okay. I dun wanna give you fires today. It's All Soul's Day. Supposed to be a peaceful day. Anyways, I couldn't give you any Halloween treat for this year. So sorryy. //sob sob// I got so busy with some other stuff. I'll be releasing my graphic site's link soon. Please stay tuned for it. :D but expect a Christmas gift from me some time in December. //jump clap jump clap// Hurrah.

Darnit. Our scanner won't work right now. I couldn't give you an actual one. But I can tell you tho, that I pretty much looked normal some years ago. Like this one. See? I look normal right? Haha. I could post a baby pic some other time; when the scanner gets fixed. Haaaah. Bottomline: I looked pretty normal. TEEHEEE.

Labels: 30 day challenge, college life, school, UP

You know you're a University of the Philippines-Visayas Student when...

1) You realize it's actually normal to talk to stuffed toys (or to yourself) when you're alone..
2) You realize you can speak Filipino very fluently.. English as well..
3) You realize it's actually normal to have breakfast/brunch at 10AM, lunch at 2PM, and dinner past 5PM.
4) You know it's actually possible to wake up just 10 minutes before your class, and still come on time [PMB's MiamiGuide101]
5) You sometimes bump into someone while staring at the bulletin boards, checking out for announcements..
6) You find it abnormal to sleep as early as 10PM.
7) You know that Facebook is prohibited in the campus' WiFi.. But you also know that adding "s" after the "http" will do the trick.. *wink*
8) You know that most of the students are smart subscribers..
9) You blog, if not, write on a journal securely kept under your fluffy pillow..
10) You realize it's actually not hard to make bed every morning, wash clothes everyday, and clean a room when it starts too look !@#$%..
11) For UPV dormers, you are bugged by the intercom when it starts murmuring alien words.. And thankful as well, for it's usefulness somehow..
 12) You smile to faces you recognize, but whose names are forgotten.. And say "Hi [insertname]!" to people you really know..
13) You know that Heaven's Bliss and Cyberology has this promo.. (i need not explain it)
14) You know it's actually possible to sleep in the library..
15) You have at least one novel/any book in store for you to read when you get bored..
16) You look forward to Acquaintance Parties..
17) You start to love Homeworks and Group projects as long as it interesting enough to spend your time on..
18) You start to love your ROOMMATES, BLOCKMATES, CLASSMATES, PROFESSORS, and SCHOOL..
19) You know: "ISKOLARS NG BAYAN,
TULOY PA RIN ANG LABAN!"

Labels: college life, UP