Once again, I'll be blogging for the sake of the challenge. Been feeling kinda effed up lately. I have problems. Family problems. And I'm we're tryna fix it right now. Hope everything turns out okay soon.

Been busy with school too. Wooo. New subjects and teachers. New friends. Boooyah. New crush. Weheehee. I'll get back to you guys. Sorry for not replying to your tags and comments. I'll make it up to you when my sched gets a little looser. 'KAY? Good.

As of now, I think I'm dying because of too much TONSILLITIS. It just hurts sooooo baaaad. Been doing sum remedies for it but it's not working. OHWELL. Might just die right now.

MY THROAT HURTS SO BAD :'(

Labels: 30 day challenge, college life, family, friends, problems, random, school

Had some fun hanging out with peanutbutter and orangeregine today. Plus, ate Shint.

We were planning movies. But we ended up eating candies in one corner plus that little donut dip on Mr. Donuts. Had much fun food-tripping with them. And daaarn, ate Shint should finish her comicbook. I wish I have skills like theirs too. Huuu. I feel so useless. 

Anyways, I dun feel like telling a story today.  I guess I can say I dun really feel okay. But I'm okay. It's just this feeling, you know. I think I'm slowly becoming a coward. All hail me. When was I ever brave enough? I keep on letting myself believe I can do IT. The IT I still don't recognize until now. I feel like shrinking (yes, literally) everytime I think about the future. I feel so unleaded. I need something to keep me on track. Kind of like a drug that'd perhaps make me feel focused? I guess I need an inspiration.

On the contrary, I dun think I need a boyfriend at all. I find it so ironic how my family NEVER made having a boyfriend an issue to me. They say it's so not prohibited. And that I could have one as long as it does not go off board, if you know what I mean. But I dun really want one. GREAAAT. While other daughters get so busy keeping their relationships from their family, here I am, very free to have one and yet I'm wasting my chance. Haaah. Whatever, I just want to be inspired SOMEHOW. Bottomline is: I wanna have that freakin' courage I need to finally talk to HIM. I NEED TO SAY HELLO, darnit. I know, I know. I sound so hopeless. Believe me, I am. I just wanna say hello.

"HELLO, YOU NERD. I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU. YOU SHOULD BE KNOWING THAT BY NOW. GUESS YOU'RE TOO BUSY WITH YOUR MATH PROBLEMS. BLAAAAH. Ihateyoulikeyou. Or should it be, Ihateyoulikeyou?"

You should be laughing by now. I sound so much like a hopeless fangirl. Guess I really am a fangirl. And guess I am hopeless too. WHATEVER. I wanna die. KIDDING. OKAY. MUST.STOP.FANGIRL-ING.NOW.

I'm finally halfway from completing the challenge. Cheers.

Labels: 30 day challenge, bored, friends, problems, random

It's already 2:32 AM in here.
And I'm not on my bed yet. Hooooo. Got stuck up on the net again. I feel so bipolar today. My mood keep switching from super high to super low raised to the negative thousands. Geez, I dunno what's wrong with me. Am I okay? Hoooo.

Anyway, after a lot of days of shaking, I finally got my grades for the first semester. Wooo. I feel so relieved. I dun have to shake everytime I try to log-in my CRSIS account.*click image to view*


I'm quite not satisfied with it. But I'm happy with it. I got a GWA of 2.1 I was aiming for the college scholarship.. It's a shame I couldn't get it this sem. I was a few points away. I know I could've made it if I just concentrated some more. SIIIGGHHH. Still, I'm happy with it. Gonna work on that scholarship next sem. I need to save money to help ma and pa. Just can't stand looking at them tiring themselves too much. I wanna do something about it. Can't wait 'til next sem.

I was not able to attend the little reunion thing. I dunno. I really didn't feel like coming. Plus I woke up late so yeah. But I got to go out with my bestfriends though. Judy, Lean, Yanca and I went out. Hooooo. I'm so happy to see them again. I really missed them. A LOT.


I got to see another bestfriend and some other friends too, we went around our ex-school. Felt so happy today. And then I went home, and felt really down. Have a lot of problems right now. Sigh. I know we can do this. But I'm okay now. Anyways, here goes my challenge for today.

I only had one person in mind. Wondergirl's Park Yeeun. I guess I don't need to explain it. Somehow, she's become one of the reasons why I still and always keep on fighting. I feel like I know her so much. She's more than just an artist to me. Cause she is someone really close to my heart. She is just so awesome and she gives me countless reasons to keep on following my dreams. I love Yeeun.

Labels: 30 day challenge, grades, problems, school, yeeun