‘But don’t forget that memory is like salt: the right amount brings out the flavour in food, too much ruins it. If you live in the past all the time, you’ll find yourself with no present to remember.’ - Paulo Coelho [link]

I get to go home after about three weeks of being away from civilization. I was with Pa on the way, which was actually a good thing cause I never had to suffer from online life short term banning (his laptop plus faaaast wifi at the hotel equals !@#$%) and meal-skipping-slash-diet. I meet up with him in the City, which was an hour and a half trip away from where I currently stay and finally have lunch in his office. He lets me decide on whether to go home that day or the day after - and I choose to stay for a night with him. Just cause I've missed him that much.

Now, I am home, in my room and it's 11:41 PM in my clock. It's been about six months since I got to sleep in my own room. Yes, my very own room and I had to wait that long to finally be with my bed again. I know how this place has become all dusty and old and boring and stuff, but somehow, I like how it is right now - It reminds me of the days I wasn't there to keep it clean and fixed; it makes me feel proud how I've survived not getting to be in here for six months straight, how I've grown so much that my toes would almost reach the tip of my bed. Six months is not very long, but it's enough.


I find it amazing how six months was actually enough turning the OLD me into the me TODAY. And I feel so stupefied and hyped up about how I'm back in my room again, BLOGGING. And I'll be doing this for two more days. Just like what I have been doing some seven months ago. So I'd better make every minute worthwhile, then. That's a lot of pressure.

I downloaded The Alchemist eBook just now. I couldn't wait 'til Christmas eve for that Paulo Coelho set I've been wishing from Ma and Pa for Christmas. I want something to keep me busy. And nobody can ever keep me busy like how Paulo can. Tonight, I'll be reading The Alchemist 'til my eyes surrender. Oh yes, I'm serious.

Labels: 30 day challenge, bored, family, home, paulo coelho

Had some fun hanging out with peanutbutter and orangeregine today. Plus, ate Shint.

We were planning movies. But we ended up eating candies in one corner plus that little donut dip on Mr. Donuts. Had much fun food-tripping with them. And daaarn, ate Shint should finish her comicbook. I wish I have skills like theirs too. Huuu. I feel so useless. 

Anyways, I dun feel like telling a story today.  I guess I can say I dun really feel okay. But I'm okay. It's just this feeling, you know. I think I'm slowly becoming a coward. All hail me. When was I ever brave enough? I keep on letting myself believe I can do IT. The IT I still don't recognize until now. I feel like shrinking (yes, literally) everytime I think about the future. I feel so unleaded. I need something to keep me on track. Kind of like a drug that'd perhaps make me feel focused? I guess I need an inspiration.

On the contrary, I dun think I need a boyfriend at all. I find it so ironic how my family NEVER made having a boyfriend an issue to me. They say it's so not prohibited. And that I could have one as long as it does not go off board, if you know what I mean. But I dun really want one. GREAAAT. While other daughters get so busy keeping their relationships from their family, here I am, very free to have one and yet I'm wasting my chance. Haaah. Whatever, I just want to be inspired SOMEHOW. Bottomline is: I wanna have that freakin' courage I need to finally talk to HIM. I NEED TO SAY HELLO, darnit. I know, I know. I sound so hopeless. Believe me, I am. I just wanna say hello.

"HELLO, YOU NERD. I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU. YOU SHOULD BE KNOWING THAT BY NOW. GUESS YOU'RE TOO BUSY WITH YOUR MATH PROBLEMS. BLAAAAH. Ihateyoulikeyou. Or should it be, Ihateyoulikeyou?"

You should be laughing by now. I sound so much like a hopeless fangirl. Guess I really am a fangirl. And guess I am hopeless too. WHATEVER. I wanna die. KIDDING. OKAY. MUST.STOP.FANGIRL-ING.NOW.

I'm finally halfway from completing the challenge. Cheers.

Labels: 30 day challenge, bored, friends, problems, random

Okay. I dun know what to post right now.
Again, I'm just posting for the sake of today's challenge. I told you, I can't waste time! huuu. I dun think I'm gonna be able to update this often when I get back to Miami ; this also kinda explains why I'm hurrying this whole challenge thing up.

Today I did my usual sembreak routine. I woke up late (again), did the same things I've been doing for the past weeks I've been here, and now, blogging (again) very late. I wanna do something with my life, darnit. I feel so useless. I wanna do things; I wanna learn. I feel so uneasy everytime I realize I'm left with basically NOTHING TO DO again. Especially now that I've already finished Coelho's The Zahir, my third. I think it's because I'm getting so used to my typical Miami routine : Wake up, cram, eat, cram, go to class, cram, cram and cram. OH AND CRAM too. Yeah, I do a lot of cramming and I dun care. Sometimes, it helps. At least I've got SOMETHING to do, right?

I spent my whole time on the computer fixing peanutbutter's blogskin. Then I got to realize how hard it is conceptualizing something you basically have no idea about. But I think I know her enough so I guess it went well. Glad to be of help to her. Oh and now that I got exposed to more awesome skins, I'm starting to feel like mine is kinda getting boooorrriiing. I wanna change my skin soon. At least before the second semester starts. I wanna cut my hair too. It's too long already. Fuuuuu.


I DON'T LIKE EGOTISTICAL PEOPLE. I choose not to elaborate on this part. To the people on top, you may be really on top, but that doesn't make you important to everybody. It's a matter of HARDWORK ad RESPECT before you get to be respected.

So, as to quench my "i-need-something-to-do" thirst, I think I'm going out with peanutbutter and reginald on Saturday. I wanna watch a moooovieeee so badlyyy. Hope it's final.

Labels: 30 day challenge, bored, paulo coelho, random

Okay. I dun feel like typing much. I feel bored.
And since I'm tryna kill some time, I wanna do something that'd save me from this boredom.
I previously lurked into dear Lulu's blog and found this. Also found it circulating on FB now so yea. I thought Hey, this is exciting. I should do this. So I'm doing it now. Hooooo.

RULES:
1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "ARE YOU OKAY" YOU SAY?
Collide by Dishwalla ( uhhh. whut?)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Make it mine by Jason Mraz ( ... )

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Lip gloss by Lil' Mama (WTH?! lmao)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Whatever you like by Nicole Scherzinger (OHHYEAHHH.)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Radio by Music Soulchild ( huh? )

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Happy Birthday by Click Five ( haa. bottomline : LIFE. )

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
A love of your own by J Holiday ( wth does that mean? )

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Call me by Tweet ( haaaah? )

WHAT IS 2+2?
Love taps by The Pen up Girls ( IDC about math anyway. lol )

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
You and me by Sean Kingston ( huuhh? lol )

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Find me by Boys Avenue ( just what I want him to do. pshhh. )

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Sweetest Thing by U2 ( Keewwll.)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
It's over now by Neve ( huh? i'll never grow up? wuutt? )

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Keep you much longer by Akon ( awwww. )

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Be the one by Dontae ( an RNB song?! o_O )

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
You and me by Lifehouse ( haaah. reminds me of someone i USED to like.)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Want it, need it by Plies ft. Ashanti ( ... )

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Never ever by Ciara ft. Young Jeezy ( Ohhhyeaaah. )

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
All I have by J.Lo ( Hahhh. 101% agreed. )

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
One headlight by Wallflowers ( darn, old song. o_O )

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
So far away by Bamboo ( Ohhh? Hahh. :p )

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
For you I will by Teddy Geiger ( Ahhhh. Fave song <3 )

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The Freshmen by The Verve Pipe ( Ahhh. What's wrong with my freshman year? T_T )

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Oops Oh My by Tweet ( WTF? I die of S-ing?! o_O )

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Viva La Vida by The Coldplay ( Is that a YES? haha. )

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Sunday bloody sunday by U2 (Wth?)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Don't worry be happy by Bobby Mcferrin ( Haha. Indeed. :p )

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Hate that i love you by Rihanna dt. Ne-yo ( Pshhhh. )

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Hush by LL Cool J ( Haaaah :p )

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
You don't miss your water by Craig David ( Okayy then. )

Phew. I never noticed I had a wide variety of music genres in here. Surprisingly, I know all of the songs. From 60's blues to today's rnb's and rap. Cool. On second thought, I guess my challenge for today is kinda related. Hoooo.

Labels: 30 day challenge, bored, game, random