‘But don’t forget that memory is like salt: the right amount brings out the flavour in food, too much ruins it. If you live in the past all the time, you’ll find yourself with no present to remember.’ - Paulo Coelho [link]

I get to go home after about three weeks of being away from civilization. I was with Pa on the way, which was actually a good thing cause I never had to suffer from online life short term banning (his laptop plus faaaast wifi at the hotel equals !@#$%) and meal-skipping-slash-diet. I meet up with him in the City, which was an hour and a half trip away from where I currently stay and finally have lunch in his office. He lets me decide on whether to go home that day or the day after - and I choose to stay for a night with him. Just cause I've missed him that much.

Now, I am home, in my room and it's 11:41 PM in my clock. It's been about six months since I got to sleep in my own room. Yes, my very own room and I had to wait that long to finally be with my bed again. I know how this place has become all dusty and old and boring and stuff, but somehow, I like how it is right now - It reminds me of the days I wasn't there to keep it clean and fixed; it makes me feel proud how I've survived not getting to be in here for six months straight, how I've grown so much that my toes would almost reach the tip of my bed. Six months is not very long, but it's enough.


I find it amazing how six months was actually enough turning the OLD me into the me TODAY. And I feel so stupefied and hyped up about how I'm back in my room again, BLOGGING. And I'll be doing this for two more days. Just like what I have been doing some seven months ago. So I'd better make every minute worthwhile, then. That's a lot of pressure.

I downloaded The Alchemist eBook just now. I couldn't wait 'til Christmas eve for that Paulo Coelho set I've been wishing from Ma and Pa for Christmas. I want something to keep me busy. And nobody can ever keep me busy like how Paulo can. Tonight, I'll be reading The Alchemist 'til my eyes surrender. Oh yes, I'm serious.

Labels: 30 day challenge, bored, family, home, paulo coelho

Once again, I'll be blogging for the sake of the challenge. Been feeling kinda effed up lately. I have problems. Family problems. And I'm we're tryna fix it right now. Hope everything turns out okay soon.

Been busy with school too. Wooo. New subjects and teachers. New friends. Boooyah. New crush. Weheehee. I'll get back to you guys. Sorry for not replying to your tags and comments. I'll make it up to you when my sched gets a little looser. 'KAY? Good.

As of now, I think I'm dying because of too much TONSILLITIS. It just hurts sooooo baaaad. Been doing sum remedies for it but it's not working. OHWELL. Might just die right now.

MY THROAT HURTS SO BAD :'(

Labels: 30 day challenge, college life, family, friends, problems, random, school

Just last week I've been ranting about dozing off a lot. Haaah. Now it's the other way around. I always stay up very late and I'm starting to believe it's becoming a bad habit. A very very bad one.

I went out with Mom again today. We watched a movie and bonded more. Yayyy. I'm gonna miss her and the rest of my peeps. I feel like I've been wanting to do a lot of things lately. And I guess it's because, again, I wanna do sumthing with my life so badly. I feel uneasy whenever I'm left with nothing to do.

But before this year ends, I promise to watch:
*Narnia 3: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader (so daarn excited!)
*HP 7: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (next weekend with sum friends!)
*RPG Metanoia (first Filipino 3-D movie. ipagmalaki ang sariling atin.)
*At least one Manila Film Fest entry.

So that's it. I posted a look on lookbook today. It's my first look. Mind Hyping my first look? [click here] Thanks!

Labels: 30 day challenge, family, lookbook, movie review

I went out with Mom today.
It was breaking my heart how I was trying to grasp the idea of starting to spend more time with her. Cause none of these moments with her will ever be normal in the next days, weeks, months and years. I'm starting to feel like something's always gonna be lesser everytime I see her when I go home from Miami from time to time. Not only with her, but also with the whole of my family. Ahhh. I'm really gonna miss them more.

On second thought, I'm really happy with my family right now. I feel like they're my reasons for everything. I keep on asking myself: "Why am I doing these?" "Why am I like this?" And the answer just automatically pops out of my head. Because I have them and I know they'll always be there for me. Ma and Pa have been together for twenty years. And it makes my heart jump everytime I read exchanges of sweet textmessages between them and everytime I realize how they make each other feel okay everytime one of them feels down. I think it really is TRUE LOVE between them. After everything they've gone through, I know they still really really really love each other and I'm very very happy for them.


And gawwwd, why am I talking about this?? Guess it's because the idea of TRUE LOVE does not ever spoil in me. I'll always believe that true love exists and that it will conquer anything. BLEEEEH. I'm starting to sound like a hopeless romantic person. MUST.STOP.NOW.

Dear Someone,

I'm not sure if you still remember me, but I think you do. Heee. I just wanna say hello though. Cause it's not everyday I get to talk to you. Cause yea I get so freakin' shy whenever you're around and you make this little girl shrink whenever you appear. Though you're not totally aware that you're hurting me, it's okay. It's my fault after all. I told myself not to tolerate any feelings until further notice, but this hard-headed freak still did. So basically, it's okay. I don't hate you; I may even think it's the other way around. Everybody's telling me to talk to you, even I tell myself to do so too; they say it wouldn't do any harm to any of us. But I dunno, everytime I see you, something SHUTS ME UP. And so I'm really sorry if I make you feel like I don't know you and that I'm a total snob or something. But really, I know you. I know everything (maybe not everything) but I know you, really. So I would advice you to do the first move. I dun really talk to crushes. That's not me. I simply get addicted to the idea of you being my crush, and everything follows, but really, I don't initiate any contact. BLEEEEHH. I know you're a smart guy. Ahhh. You're just so ideal. That's all. But I know you'll never get the chance to read this, so yea. I'll keep on dreaming. :p And yes, I LIKE YOU.

Labels: 30 day challenge, family

Hello there. [♥]
So you may have dropped in to my blog and caught in the time when I had the " I am home!" mood in my header up there . Yea, I did go home and I had loads of fun there . I am in my Freshman year in a University and this is the first time I'm studying away from my family . So far, so good. I have a sister and four more brothers - they all lived together now, I'm the only one away so that kinda makes me feel jealous of them. I can pretty much say I am not used to being away from them. When I went back home, I met some friends again after a long time : Maxine, Kim, James, Fitz, JJ, Star, and Herman (He was so cute! He looked like a Korean when I saw him. I barely recognized him!) --because they ate in Chef Will's and I saw them in the Cafe next to it. But of course, I spent more time with my Family. I have been nostalgic lately and I felt like I needed to go home to be myself again. I realized that I needed a dose of HOME from time to time to be able to survive. So for survival purposes, I went home ! I went home with Feb, a very good friend and dorm mate of mine from BS Psychology. We lived in the same province so yeah.

CHEF WILL's [♥]. For most of my time there, I was at Chef Will's. I had to help Mom with all the stuff and I kinda felt really good cause all the serving stuff made me remember summer- when I was with my cousin Patrice and we were the ones incharge of keeping up our Aunt's Resto . Oh how I miss my cousin. Hope I see her soon.
Daughtz(Maxine) and I agreed to meet up during lunch time cause she had Choir Practice in the morning and since her and my (old)school was just near there, she dropped by, had lunch with a few more friends, and had a little chat with me and my Lil' sister. Maxine has been a part of the family now . She's always welcome and I feel like I am too in their house. I've been there a lot of times already and did a lot of crazy things with her too so I can say she's been a sister to me and a family to my family now. I  We just love her [♥].
1. After a long time of being away from each other, I finally had time with my Mom! I am so happy I saw her before August ended. Missing her Birthday was bad enough. I couldn't imagine myself missing her Birthmonth . My other brother's gonna have his Birthday on the 25th too! Too sad I'm not gonna be there. I love you Kuya John! [note: Kuya is older brother in our language.]
2. The three little sisters. Haha. You know, what really made me happy was that I knew we didn't have to go to the mall just to experience fun. We just sat there, talked and laughed together, and Poof!I felt completely Happy! [♥].
 3. I'm with my little sister after what seemed to be years! Forgive us for looking so gross . Maxine took this pic in the afternoon and it was sooo darn hot there . Notice how Alecx had her hair un-combed. Haha. And she kept on bombarding my phone again! She really loved one game Party Bubble Popper. Whenever I went home, she'd ask if she could borrow my cellphone and immediately browse through stuff and play the game. I even remember one time when I was about to leave, she was like, "Ate, don't delete my account in Party Bubble Popper, okay?!" So basically, she owned that game. [note: Ate is older sister in our language.]

Now that I'm back, I feel completely happy again. I have something really big behind me, always pushing me forward, making me do stuff for my good and the good of everybody: My Family and friends. I really love them and I feel like they're my Vitamins. They make me feel stronger everyday.

Labels: family, friends, happy, home